33 weeks 2 days - Dru's Rollercoaster Ride

 

Chubba Bubba

Pregnancy life nowadays I am going to compare to being bipolar.  You can ask me how I'm doing one minute and you may get, "Great!" And you may ask me the following hour and get, "I'm done, please take these boys out."  I'm sure this is all normal pregnancy things but man is it tough to control myself.

Speaking of controlling myself, I can't lay off the chocolate and ice cream.  The highlight of my day today, a Ghirardelli square-Pecan Pie. Yum! The not so highlight of my day, a stranger kissing his hand and putting it on my belly AND getting pains while trying to get just one errand done.  (I think it's Mr Cooper's positioning, your head may be on my hip)

My stats: Gained 76 pounds. Restless leg syndrome at night, Mark says I snore now (he recorded it), I'm itchy, stretchmarks here to stay, both babies have been head down, my face is fatty mcfat-fat.
This picture: looks like my belly has dropped a little, but I still don't think I'm going to meet my boys til closer to Christmas if not after...not knowing is really tough on me.

Word to the wise boys: Mama DOES NOT like surprises...

Side Note: Mark and I will be setting a wedding date very soon.  We are looking forward to our future.  :)

Maternity Photo Shoot and some thoughts

 

I decided to get maternity photos taken because I knew I would regret it if I didn't.  I know I don't have the best memory and looking back at photos helps me remember what I was thinking and feeling around that time.  At this point in the pregnancy 90% of my time and thoughts were directed towards these growing boys inside of me. (The other 10% is what am I going to eat next).  My life has a new meaning and a new direction, and that is taking care of and unconditionally loving my family.

This one is my favorite

I feel this one says it all.  My favorite.  Mark my soon to be husband (by law, and on paper at least) is amazing.  He is someone I look up to in every way and makes me feel good inside and out.  I have spent so much time trying to make things fit where they don't and Mark came into the picture and everything really did fall into place.  We work together on a daily basis to communicate and to be there for one another and to put each other first.  I can 100% without a doubt in my mind say, he is the one, my heart and my soul.  I can't wait to see him with our boys, I know he'll do great.  I had so much fun taking these photos with him.

Love, love, and more love

This pregnancy I feel has made me a little more calmer as a person.  Of course I have my moments of weakness, when I'm past the point of tired or hormones are getting the best of me, but overall I think I'm a lot more easy going.  Before pregnancy...road rage, anger towards complete strangers, even some hate sometimes.  I'm still far from perfect and know I never will be, but I think I'm coming to a realization that there's more to it than the day-to-day struggles.  I have a wonderful family and awesome friends and I can't wait for the boys to meet them and see the world for all of it's good.

This is it

This is it right here, this is what it's all about.  Giving, receiving, loving, helping, being helped, creating a circle of friends, growing that circle, being there for everyone who needs you; when they need you, sharing love and recreating, respecting everyone, being kind, showing gratitude and appreciation.  It's so easy to take it all for granted while we're rushing from place to place.

This photo shoot was more fun than expected and these pictures will always bring back pleasant memories. 

-10/23/2010

It's a wonderful life.